H has found it.
Paranoia made an unexpected appearance. I caught a glimpse of "real" feelings towards a man.
He goes on a night out...I wonder if he will find it as easy as me.
I sought his reassurance and now the side is down.
Yet a blunt reply from me and he needs smothered in cotton wool to undo it. And then he is back on top.
C is lording my sexual attraction to him over me. I hate that.